Profess(or)ing my Love

Here’s how I feel about today. I am positively glowing with inspiration after the performance workshop in class today. My professor manipulated my tense shoulders like a puppet master, working my nervous frame and putting the memory into my body of what it feels like to move organically to the music I can create withContinue reading “Profess(or)ing my Love”

Patron Saint Hekate?

liminal: (adj) 1) relating to a transitional or initial stage of a process, 2) occupying a position at, or on both sides of, a boundary or threshold. I drew a bath today when I got home from class. I lit two votive candles and sank into the steaming water, thinking of the goddess Hekate. FallContinue reading “Patron Saint Hekate?”

Flirting with Raison D’Être

Wow, today really got away from me. From the moment my alarm went off, it’s been a barrage of music, metaphorical thinking, running errands, arguing with the insurance company, doing homework, and brainstorming ways to make the community safer and more just. I don’t have a lot of “juice” left for the blog tonight. ThisContinue reading “Flirting with Raison D’Être”

Ode to Shamhat

Debussy twinkles through my ear Preserved like champagne like the epic of birds courting each other like sunlight sifting through virga descending soft and true and timeless  upon whatever dares grow upon this shifting planet I haven’t read much poetry lately But have made efforts to listen to opera In my mind this is aContinue reading “Ode to Shamhat”

Halloween Tradition

Today, the boyfriend and I went to a Halloween themed store, to buy a decoration for my dad.  This is his favorite holiday, and he loves fussing around the house, puttering over projects like making a lightbulb flicker, and arranging plastic skeletons just so.  Every year we carve pumpkins, there inevitably comes the joke ofContinue reading “Halloween Tradition”

Belief in Dog

It is quiet in this apartment but for the fridge buzzing in the kitchen and the little dog, gently snoozing next to me. I am dogsitting for a few days while Pippin’s owners are on a mountain biking trip. We went for a short run together this morning (my first run in nearly five months,Continue reading “Belief in Dog”

“I Am a Killer”

After binge watching a show on murderers with the boyfriend (and the dog), I find myself a little more paranoid walking around at night alone. I can’t help but think that by investing my time taking in morbid material and thinking morbid thoughts, I will somehow attract that energy to me. Almost every case theContinue reading ““I Am a Killer””

Home(r)

It’s raining.  I sit in bed, candles burning, heating pad turned on, thinking about Oliver Sacks and distortions in the brain.  It took me until approximately 5:30 pm to feel awake today. I wonder where this lethargy is coming from—do I need iron supplements? Am I anemic? Have I somehow acquired mono? I sleep 6-10Continue reading “Home(r)”

Hurrian Hymns and Murder Flicks

After nearly five hours of homework, I don’t have a lot of mental stamina for a blog post tonight. I spent the day going to class, grocery shopping, grocery organizing and unpacking, completing my assignments, and listening to Hurrian Hymn No. 6, written in 1400 B.C and dedicated to the goddess of fertility and bountyContinue reading “Hurrian Hymns and Murder Flicks”