I’m in bed, and the day is winding down. I spent it in front of the piano, and playing my guitar next to the ocean. I am so inspired, lately. I hardly know what to do with it all, except to insert my nose into my music theory workbook and keep on handling my instruments. We are always evolving. I am finally turning the page on the self-soothing chapter and looking into crafting an identity, learning to jam with others and contribute to the musical conversation.

It’s all about participation—finding a way to participate in joy. As a fairly dark-minded child, music was one of the only things that I could connect with. I am learning to peel back the layers of my perceived identity, embrace what new ways I can find pleasure in the world around me. And in finding that pleasure, to wield it, channel it, share it…

But first, I have to slow down. The speed is actually in the slowing. Slow down to speed up. Speed up.Upward lift! That’s the way I want to go!

I don’t know why this should surprise me—life is full of oxymorons like that.

Inspiration is everywhere. It is in the forgetting of this that we sink into despair, a state I had long resigned myself to. Now I seek the courage to overcome myself, in a sense. Learn to thank my ego for protecting me, and let it go…

There is so much love in the air, waiting to be plucked and rolled around in your mouth and shared. Everywhere you go, there it is. Enjoy looking for it; celebrate finding it; pass it on! Goodnight, dear readers. I love you.

Published by Hannah

Just yer average girl next door.

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